Being heard

Weary and perhaps a touch jaded, (a touch!?), I find myself unusually down this afternoon. An unexpected phone call plus some snail mail ruining what were hopeful expectations for my family's financial wellbeing in the upcoming months. Maybe years. Sigh.

And this on top of general body pain, headaches, insomnia, chills and sweats, teeth and jaw pain, insomnia, difficulty using my hands, and even vision problems all flared up more than usual - for 3 weeks now. Enough already! Although I know it's just the usual lyme fun, really.

So my gratitude for today? A quick phone chat with a sweet and kind hearted friend. She happens to be going through more than enough of her own stuff right now too.

We were both feeling unhinged, overwrought, and burdened with the urge to quickly make everything all better. But that's not how life works... lately it seems anyhow! So instead we shared some worries. Had a few laughs. Mixed things up with sheer bewilderment. There are no clear answers. No answers at all right now actually.

Both situations are still scary and depressing ...but now I'm smiling - just a little smile. I'll take that.

Just being heard can be healing enough for today. I hope she's smiling a little bit too.