Stuck in bed day after day can quickly turn to year after year with chronic illness. I have a lot of practice with this now yet it still blows my mind how difficult the journey is. I had no concept of how hard it could really be until it happened to me.
But... the silver lining. Dealing with the pain, exhaustion and social isolation of chronic Lyme disease for nearly four years now has led me to find joy and appreciation in the smallest of things. Maybe forced me is a better way of describing it. I was determined to find some way of finding good, and lots of it, in the midst of the physical and emotional pain that had taken over my life.
Chronic illness or not, I now believe that this is really what having a good life is about. Enjoying what is available to you from moment to moment. Letting go of the need for more, bigger, better. Letting go of comparing to what others may have, do or be. Letting go of the desperate need to escape where you are right now. I don't mean giving up on hopes or dreams. Hold on to those. Enjoy those! But at the same time, submit to the now and appreciate the beauty it too can offer.
This blog will be my journal of appreciation. A documentation of gratitude for little, regular, every day things. To celebrate on the days I am up for joy, and to remind me on the days I need reminding.
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