Spiritual lessons in lyme

Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't wish chronic lyme on my worst enemy.  However, this blog is about gratitude... and I have to say I spend a lot of time contemplating the spiritual gifts or lessons that chronic lyme offers us.

There is little chance I would have learned so much and so quickly in the last 4 years of my life had it continued on its merry way ...without the big lyme crisis blowing everything apart.  I had a good, but full, busy, and quite stressful life - sort of the norm for us North American moms. I had very young children, a full-time highly demanding job.  A home, marriage, social life, pets to take care of too.  I was learning stuff. Dealing with some chaos. But nothing like what came afterwards. ;)

I came across this fabulous post by Laura Bruno a couple of years ago and find it fascinating to this day.  She is a medical intuitive with both friends and a husband with chronic lyme.  She says "Lyme seems to show up like a roto-rooter, forcing people to dig deep and remove ALL blocks to creativity and healing. To the outside world, these people usually look like they have no blocks because they’re moving so effectively through life, but Life has other plans. It’s as though these people came in with a bigger mission than their current lifestyle or world view allows."

I don't know what you think - but for myself - this fits.

Note: I'm not psychic myself in the traditional sense - more of a clairsentient.  Which took me years to discover and was a huge relief when I finally realized it consciously.

Anyhow, I have had two readings this year.  One at the beginning of the year - a New Year's tarot card reading.  And then, just last weekend, I went to a psychic for a quick 15 minute reading.  I've never gone for a psychic reading before.  An intuitive friend of mine felt compelled to go and to bring me along - so, in the spirit of my go-with-the-flow and whatever-the-day brings philosophy, I went.

My New Year's reading was fine.  I was a little scared as I have had tarot readings that predicted things wouldn't go well in the past - and they didn't. They really really didn't! But this time, it was good. And the actual topic of my health did NOT come up.  At all.  Weird.  A relief. The conclusion made at the time was that my health is a non-issue in my life.  Which is confusing as hell on the one hand - as the state of my health is dictating how much I can parent, how little I socialize, how I can't work, the hours I spend each and every day taking meds, supplements, prepping and cooking the right foods, napping, etc! But it makes sense on the other.  I'm on my path... lyme or no lyme... on I go with life. Which has been, for the most part!, what I have been striving for.  Not to be defined by lyme.  But just to live my life.  And take heed of various limitations as I need to.  Just as you would if say you had a bum knee.

And then in my psychic reading, guess what... my health didn't come up either.   And maybe the guy just wasn't very good right?  Not so psychic?  Well, he nailed a lot actually... and I didn't give him anything to go on... in words anyhow.  No questions, no talk about my situation, my family.  Nothing. I just stayed quiet for most of it.  Nodding here and there. He was spot on for a lot for my friend's reading too.

For me, he didn't end up making a lot of predictions though... instead he spent the first half of our session exclaiming a bit over my energy. (And it was only a 15 min session!). He had met only a handful of people like me.  In 25 years of doing readings.  Was amazed at how much I want to learn.  Last life to this life, within this life thus far.  Awakenings I've already had. Interesting.  And whether true or not true - I do wonder if it all goes back to lyme offering up some pretty cool opportunities for those of us pushing to learn a lot in our lives this go round on earth. (If you happen to be the believe-in-reincarnation type). 

So maybe there really is a silver lining.  Well, I know there is. I did have a decent perspective on life before the lyme experience. But with it, I've grown a lot and gone so much deeper.  My true values become clearer with each passing month.  I'm redefining how I want to live my life.  Pretty cool.