Here I am almost a week after my last post and I have not been able to increase my Cowden antimicrobial rotation drops at all. I'm still at 28 drops!
Symptoms seem a bit stronger than earlier too. But I'm not sure. How can you be sure when there are so many symptoms in your body and they are so strong, yet so subtle. I say 'subtle' because I am convinced I ignore most of what is going on symptom-wise most of the time. This isn't to say that I don't take care of my body (+ mind + spirit!) in the absolute best way I know how on any given day. But if I focused on the symptoms, I have little doubt that I would go out of my mind with frustration and suffering.
On second thought, I may have actually already gone out of my mind with frustration and suffering even without focusing on them. HA!
Anyhow, is a week at 28 drops okay???? Am I doing this wrong????? When will I feel well enough, confident enough, to increase again? How many freaking weeks will it take me to get to 30 drops???? I can't know. So I just keep moving forward (or not, HA again!) day by day. We have been on short little bike rides every day or two. Still 100% in love with it. I can only ride on smooth pathways - bumpy roads are agonizing. But we live near a gorgeous bike path next to a river. So, how about that awesomeness??!! Lucky. But what I mean to say when I talk about the bike is that maybe it's not the 28 drops, but rather the new activity that is keeping me at this level of meds. Maybe it's a combo. Maybe the biking has nothing to do with it. Again, who knows?
Grateful for the tandem bike loan. Grateful for the bike path. Grateful I have a husband who is willing to do all the work on the bike - essentially towing me along until someday I have regained the endurance, strength, balance and judgement to be able to ride on my own again. Grateful I can bike alongside the kids for the first time in half of their lives. Grateful that it doesn't matter if I ever get that well again - I can still bike!
And hoping that these days of 28 drops on Houttunyia and Enula are doing great, great things in my body.
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