Happy Halloween :)

I've switched to my Houttunyia/Enula rotation and it is kicking my butt a bit.  On just 20 drops.  But this is always my roughest rotation so I'm not shocked. Feels like I'm on Benadryl and Red Bull at the same time.  Exhausted but strung out. Feeling drunk in my head when I attempt to converse with anyone. Oh well. So be it.

Nevertheless, I've been on this rotation a few days now and it's getting a little less intense.  Managed a good nap yesterday and a wee one today (unlike the days/nights before - exhausted but pounding heart/wired feeling).  And then yesterday, on Halloween, I made dinner and was also able to totally enjoy handing out candy to all the trick-or-treaters.  Chatted with parents, stood outside and watched the wonder of the night... beautiful, normal-people kind of stuff.

Two hours of trick-or-treaters at the door later, dear hubby and youngest daughter got home lugging a boatload of candy.  This child had never lasted so long in previous years - so she was pretty proud and pretty pumped.  The three of us took some time to catch up on each others' nights and then I ventured out for a little walk.  Time to enjoy all the decorations and cool jack-o-lantern carvings myself!

I strolled slowly around our block, appreciating the Halloween enthusiasm clearly expressed in the neighbourhood, and even had a good chat with a woman I hadn't seen in a few months along the way.

Shortly after I arrived home, my eldest was dropped off - she had been trick-or-treating with her friends in another neighbourhood.  So the mom and I caught up a bit, standing on the front porch in the beautiful night.  It was close to 9pm at this point - and I was still standing!

All in all, I didn't get to bed til around 10:30 and then was too wired to sleep - a combo of everything that went on, but mostly the potent houttunyia!  I finally was able to fall asleep around midnight.

I was tired this morning, but okay.  Really okay.

I like this soooooo much! My hope is high these days!  I may not be out of the woods, but I don't feel like I'm hopelessly lost in the scariest, darkest bits of it any longer.  Lyme can still frighten the pants off me if I think about it enough, but I'm focusing way too much on living to care right now.