Taking some recovery days

Here it is Wednesday and I still can't seem to recover from having out of town guests last weekend. My body is wanting rest. A tonne of it. I'm grateful that this week is a quiet week and I can give in to a lot of resting. But my poor mind feels like it is going crazy with all this exhaustion. I'm used to a fair bit of fatigue of course, (and I'm sure that is putting it mildly as I tend to minimize it all in my head as a coping strategy) but I guess I've also gotten used to having a bit of routine whereby I'm not in bed quite this much or fighting my body to be out of bed quite this much.

All an amazing indication of the healing that has gone on these past two years. :)

The solution of course is well known to me at this point in my healing journey. I need to listen to my body and give it what it needs as best I can. And listen to my emotions too. Honour my frustration and honour the grief. Honour the anger. I can, and am, doing all of this. Letting it flow.

Yet I still feel like I am going crazy!!! So this too, I honour as best I can.

So, is it worth it to have company stay? I honestly think, at this point, that I'll need to limit it in the future. I did a lot of prep before our guests arrived, I rested a lot while they were here. I stayed up too late in the evenings chatting though because it was fun. And I probably cooked and cleaned up a little bit too much while they were here. I need to learn to ask for more help. Next time I think it might be wisest to limit an overnight visit to one night too.

Lyme is really hard. I still want to be able to have guests and visits but I need to balance this with honouring my limits. And not feeling guilty about it.

Out of town guests when you're sick

Hubbie and I slept in a few extra minutes this weekend morn, but there's not much sleeping in to be had when there are rounds of meds to be taken. And when your best energy is first thing in the morning. I wanted to get up and properly nourish myself and then make both breakfast and dinner so my guests would be properly taken care of, for today.

Well, more or less.

What do you do when you're chronically ill and there are guests to be entertained and cared for? I default to making sure they are fed, and then chat as much as I can, while resting in between. This works out okay... I hope.  I'm okay.  I'm too tired but I cope. I am so grateful to have people who love us take the time out of their schedules to travel and hang out with us. I end up feeling guilty about being a poor hostess though. Who goes back to bed right after their guests have risen for the day and been fed breakfast? It feels weird.

I'm working on acceptance and losing the guilt. It's far from how I would ideally entertain, but it's pretty darn great for our current circumstances. Which means it is perfect for today. Not so different for someone who isn't ill and is hosting. You do your best and let love take care of the rest.