Here it is Wednesday and I still can't seem to recover from having out of town guests last weekend. My body is wanting rest. A tonne of it. I'm grateful that this week is a quiet week and I can give in to a lot of resting. But my poor mind feels like it is going crazy with all this exhaustion. I'm used to a fair bit of fatigue of course, (and I'm sure that is putting it mildly as I tend to minimize it all in my head as a coping strategy) but I guess I've also gotten used to having a bit of routine whereby I'm not in bed quite this much or fighting my body to be out of bed quite this much.
All an amazing indication of the healing that has gone on these past two years. :)
The solution of course is well known to me at this point in my healing journey. I need to listen to my body and give it what it needs as best I can. And listen to my emotions too. Honour my frustration and honour the grief. Honour the anger. I can, and am, doing all of this. Letting it flow.
Yet I still feel like I am going crazy!!! So this too, I honour as best I can.
So, is it worth it to have company stay? I honestly think, at this point, that I'll need to limit it in the future. I did a lot of prep before our guests arrived, I rested a lot while they were here. I stayed up too late in the evenings chatting though because it was fun. And I probably cooked and cleaned up a little bit too much while they were here. I need to learn to ask for more help. Next time I think it might be wisest to limit an overnight visit to one night too.
Lyme is really hard. I still want to be able to have guests and visits but I need to balance this with honouring my limits. And not feeling guilty about it.
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